It’ so easy for me to rant about what I do not have. “Buti pa si ganto, may business. Buti pa si ganyan, malaki na sahod. Buti pa si classmate, abogado na.” And the list goes on and on.
This “buti pa si ___” mentality makes me feel envious, mad, and anxious at the same time. Sometimes, I would cultivate a bitter feeling towards another simply because they have what I do not possess.
Being the eldest of the three siblings, I have an obligation to help my family. However, whenever I look at my situation, I always feel inadequate and incompetent to help. This is due to the fact that i just finished my post-graduate studies which demanded almost all of our finances. I would always blame myself for not being able to help. Although at my age, I should be giving them the life that they deserve.
But reading this month’s theme in our Giving Journal “It’s not what you have, it’s what you do with what you have,” reminded me of a character in the Bible who managed to give despite her insufficiency. In Mark 12:41-44, while Jesus and his disciples were watching the people put in money in the offering box, they saw a widow who gae two small copper coins in contrast to the rich people who gave large sums. Jesus said that the one who had given the most is the poor widow for she, out of her poverty, has given all that she had to live on.
Isn’t it ironic that the one who gave less in terms of money has honored God tremendously? How is it possible? The reason is because God isn’t looking at the amount. He is after our hearts. If the only thing that you have right now is the willingness to give, just as the widow in the passage, then you can definitely give.
In a world where giving is limited on the price tag, Jesus gave His opposite view and painted a clearer picture of how it should be done.
Maybe you’re like me who is still unemployed or maybe you’re still a student , but that doesn’t mean you can’t give. Love, time, and prayer are things that are free but are rarely given. Why? Because we always associate the term “giving” with “money.” But when we give love to other people, most especially to the people we hate, we give magnanimously. When we spend time with other people, we create memories that will surely last a lifetime. When we pray for other people, especially those who are troubled, we help them with their burdens.
Yes, as of now, I am incapable of providing for my family when it comes to material resources but I have learned that in giving, what matters is not material wealth, but the willingness to give and the heart to serve.
It’s not about what I can or what I can’t do; rather, it’s about what God can accomplish through me. Whatever season in life, I know I can give because our God enables me to give through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 3:14)