According to Merriam-Webster’s Dictionary, metamorphosis is a major change in the appearance or character of someone or something. Biologically speaking, it is a major change in the form or structure of some animals or insects that happens as the animal or insect becomes an adult. The most common example of insects undergoing this stage is a butterfly.
Let me tell you the story about my own version of this transformation from a caterpillar into a butterfly.
Note: The first stage of the metamorphosis is an egg, but for illustration’s sake, I’d be skipping the egg stage and jump into the second stage, the larva.
First Stage: Larva
The first stage is the soon-to-be butterfly’s feeding stage, when it is still a caterpillar. During this stage, the job of the caterpillar is to eat and eat and eat. Its purpose is to grow and just live.
Like my childhood days when I was starting to grow, I was just like a caterpillar. All I had to do was accept and absorb whatever was given to me. I started to go to school and my responsibility was just to study, play, follow my teachers, review for the exams, get to know my classmates, wait for my Dad to fetch me or walk home with my cousins, do whatever my parents asked me, and be a good example to my siblings [as the eldest]. At a young age, my eyes were already open from the things happening around me, the fights within our neighborhood, our family situation, and everything said and done by the people I encountered. I can still remember the things I’ve heard and seen which I knew, at that time, weren’t anything good. I was a passive listener yet I already knew how to analyze things and I just accepted the fact that I couldn’t do anything about it. My arms were still short and it was not my time yet. But as time went by, I learned a lot. I learned how to make friends, to study hard to be the top of the class, to fight back against my bullies, to dance, to do some sports, and even to imitate others’ ways. I also got to study in an exclusive school and learned to adapt with their ways and to ride on the status quo. If they didn’t study, I didn’t study as well. If my classmates didn’t do homeworks, I didn’t do mine too. These things seemed natural to me even until college. I wasn’t the type of student who would go against the majority – you can call it peer pressure. This, until such time that I encountered Him.
Second Stage: Pupa
When the caterpillar has fully grown and it stops eating, it becomes a pupa. Depending on the species, the pupa may be suspended under a branch, hidden in leaves or buried underground. This stage can last from a few weeks to a month or even longer. Some have a pupal stage that lasts for two years. It may look like nothing is going on, but big changes are actually happening inside.
March 24, 2012. I attended a retreat together with my friends called Encounter God Retreat or EGR. I was an officer of the Student Council that time and organized an event called Freshminds regarding memorization and a whole bunch of stuff about our brain’s capacities. When they invited us over for a ‘camp’, I was so excited because I thought there would be bonfires, hikes, and all those nature activites that I wanted, so I joined without a single clue of what was going to happen. They brought us to a place somewhere in Laguna and after some few talks about life and God, I don’t know what happened next but everything shifted– even my heart. I broke down crying and I felt like I was wrapped into something I couldn’ explain. That moment, I knew that my life was never going to be the same again. That was the first time I felt how close I was with the Father, with the Lord, with Jesus. It was like a face to face encounter with Him and all I can feel was love, joy and peace. That moment felt surreal, but I knew I wasn’t dreaming.
After that encounter, I could sense that there were going to be gradual changes that would happen to me- not just physically (because I can feel that I’m growing prettier each day), but also inside, spiritually. I never thought that I could be so compassionate with people. I never knew that I could be so into what God was doing and I never imagined that I would also start worshiping Him. Before, I would laugh at people who worshipped God publicly. I thought weirdly of them. But when I look at myself now, can I call myself weird? No, I am loved. From nobody, I became a somebody. From feeling like a slave, I discovered my real identity given by my Creator and became his daughter. But the road was not as easy as I thought it would be, perhaps it even became tougher. The changes in me weren’t really accepted by my relatives and my ways were not always deemed the right path. Most of the things became harder because I was not doing the usual already. It was out of my comfort zone, but it was good. As my faith grew, my relationship with Him and everyone who believed in Him grew stronger as well. I never thought that I could be released to this kind of Destiny, in this kind of purpose. Yet, I embraced everything I was set to.
Final Stage: Adult
The adult stage is what most people think of when they think of butterflies. At this stage, the creature that it was already looks very different from the larva and they already have wings to fly.
I’ve gone through the long process but I was able to embrace the purpose that was set for me. I fully understood the reason why Jesus died on the cross (John 3:16) and I fully believed on His plans and promises for all of us (Jeremiah 29:11). Now, I believe that I am a full-grown butterfly– colorful and can fly high! But my journey doesn’t end there. I still have so much more to learn and receive from my Father above. And as a sign of gratefulness, I will use His gifts to spread His word and influence people to reach their full potentia and to also share the fire of love that God has given me and fulfill our life purpose. Everything has a reason and there’s also a reason why I write these things. Just embrace the Lord and you will be amazed of what He can do to your life.
God bless you! Let’s change the world together in our own simple ways 🙂 And remember, you are LOVED. Don’t you forget that!